Saturday, December 31, 2005

tar filled bubbles

the aquarium was so peaceful and fun. I had the perfect group of girls. It kept my mind off of things and kept me happy and confident. I wished so bad that i was a fish. Floating around in the tank, the whole creepy people staring probably wouldn't be too fun.

I don't know me and you don't know you,so we fit so good together 'cause I knew you like I knew myself

i woke up yesterday at 8, but laid in bed listening to music until 12. I curled up staying warm, and from where I was laying i could only see this violet gray light streaming in. it was calming.

We clung on like barnacles on a boat, even though the ship sinks you know you can't let go.

i have my hopes up really high for tonight. I think i'll just blend in, but it will be awesome to observe and sit back. i need this tonight.

I was talking like two hands knocking Saying, "Let me in, let me in. Please come out."

so i have no idea anymore. i feel very lost.
ever think a lot of things have gone wrong because you didn't pray enough? well here i am. i need to pray for big things. ask for signs. and perhaps God will show mercy and do it.

oh humanity how i hate you.

i'm still in shock. out of nowhere.
i told myself to be careful.
damn.
i'm heartbroken.

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