Egypt's prairie land.

I walked out of that house without wiping a tear off my face. "These people mean nothing to me. And I mean nothing to them." then I left.

I put on my new shoes. Today I am going to pretend I am a real photographer, with black on, for beth.

I think I applied to NAU for early admission. But after the email I have recieved from the photography director, I am starting to think this is not the place for me. He basically told me to look at a different school if I am looking at photography. So I have applied for University of Arizona, and hopefully their art program is better. Perhaps this is a sign from God that Arizona is not the place.
Photography gives me a peace of mind. A calm I can create and control.
So maybe this is a sign from God that Photography is it for me. I love to do it. I love the boundless amounts of creativity found in it. Money never meant anything to me...as long as I do what I adore. This is what I adore.


Even though I passed up the deadline to SVA... I think I might apply anyways.



I have created a new persona over the past year of who i want to be. Everytime I have a piece of that person, I have a new found peace. It's like playing dress up or putting a mask on of your favorite person in the whole world.
She wears black. Red lipstick. High heels. And could careless about anyone around her. Maybe she smokes. She has a camera around her shoulder, her hair is pulled back.
I hate smoke.

This is me hiding.

2006 is almost here. Endings and beginnings will fill the year.
Thank GOD it is almost here.