oh indecision- how i abhor thee.

i carved your name across my eyelids

my brain is filled with nonsense and worthless bits of information when i should have been studying for topics that actually mattered to tests. and working for 9 hours (not complaining) can really fry a girl's brain.

you prayed for rain, i prayed for blindness.

i am changing my signature to an asexual signature. candace skinner and C.E. Skinner sound completely different and slightly more...mysterious? that's what i am going for kids.

man, i am very.anxious. heres your chance. can you handle it? are your hopes up yet? will you watch the failure flitter down with the snowflakes of january.?.

january. the month of obligation and duty. the month to start your resolutions and get things done.

the winter night sky is a completely different sky compared to summer night sky. ever notice that? the cold air and the clear nights. bright stars and calm moon. although i hate the cold...the winter night sky makes up for it.

flashback. sleeping bags. my drive-way. the stars. the very end of winter and beginning of spring. we laid there and discussed the future, the relationships, the God. i went inside to get 4 more pairs of socks. two for me and two for you. i could have laid there forever.

another flashback. summer. cool nights. fuzzy moon, the stars were the only things that stood out. dew crept up on our sleeping bags, and we watched for it in the wee hours of anticipation and excitement.

one more. winter. a little after evening but before the night sky was in full effect. 3 days after christmas. we said our goodbyes and then stood there as i threw snowballs. i just wanted to play, yet exhaustion had taken you over. no play, just sleep.

fear overwhelms me. this is it. watch it go. the months are flying by. mid-january and still so many things to do...

we promised the world we tamed it, what were we hoping for.