tension

i have this slight headache tingling in the back of my head. lack of sleep and interesting dreams consumed me last night, thus waking up more exhausted than i had before i actually went to sleep. So i wait for my mind and body to wake up, such a slow process. As time goes on my mind begins to wonder about the future of possibilities more like worries. what if what if what if. I need something to fill my mind as this all begins to break down. Perhaps in a couple years I could do a volunteer service. Get back to my ways of want to help people. the older i become i begin to accept my selfish ways then forget them.