geometric shapes on a coffee mug

i walked away.
which started a nervous breakdown. you wouldn't be too proud to hear what i did. i don't handle stress or anxiety or problems in general very good. with my hands shaking and my head spinning, i ran out of the house, into my safety zone. the tracker.

give me your eyes
i need sunshine

the windows were down, even though it was 10 degrees outside. heat and music blasting inside. speeding down obvious streets where cops could have easily caught me. i am reckless in moments of panic.

I'd take you where nobody knows you
And nobody gives a damn

eventually i blocked everything and began to believe i was someone else.



i had a dream about a dance, and someone important didn't come. as I was cleaning up purple frames with pictures of everyone I loved...I broke down in front of my asst. principle and began to cry.
in the dream i was crying so hard I couldn't breathe, my throat was closing up.
I woke up there, because I couldn't actually breathe.
intense.

i just had the immense urge to learn how to play the piano.


too old. too young. too whatever. i'll just make up an excuse so I don't have to put forth any real effort.