my disgust keeps me awake

My fingertips are holding onto the
cracks in our foundations,
and I know that I should let go,
but I can't.
And everytime we fight I know it's not right,
everytime that you're upset and I smile
I know I should forget, but I can't.

You said I must eat so many lemons,
'cause I am so bitter.
I said "I'd rather be with your friends mate,
'cause they are much fitter"

Yes it was childish
and you got aggressive
and I must admit that I was a bit scared,
but it gives me thrills to wind you up.


Sometimes songs just sum it up better than I can.


It's just really bad now. 4 am, wide awake, writing a blog. Maybe it isn't my stress that has been keeping me awake. And unfortunately the wine-oh it does not help me to sleep.

It was so good before, so young, so hopeful. Promises, monsters, and flying glass. What a mess.

swimming through cities

I am walking through the city, and Imogen Heaps Hide and Seek is playing in the background. I have long hair again and my body looks like it's under water. As people walk by they stare at me. I am the only one walking this way. As everyone passes, people try to touch me, but only feel water. Then everyone begins to run the opposite direction. It looks as though people are screaming, but all i hear is the music. I finally get to my destination, which is a monster like Godzilla tearing down buildings. He stops and waits for me to get there. I stand before him, and put one hand on his scaly skin. A burst of water shoots through where i just touched him. I touch him on the other side and more water bursts through. Eventually i destroy the monster, and the city in under water.

You really have to listen to the song.