John mayer is my guilty pleasure

SO what do the normal people dream of? Sweet simple things to get away from their dreary lives? Because for me, it a continuation of life, so believable I wake up wondering why I had done the terrible things I had dreamt of. I wake up guilty, ready to jump out of bed because who knows what I will dream next. Either I remember these terrible things or nothing at all.
Nothing at all wins.

Filling out a questionnaire of simple questions should be that, simple.But leave it to me to find hidden questions in the question: Are you interested in being placed on an international basis?
Well yes, but I don't think right now, maybe later. Can I put later? Can i change this later, or should i just put yes for now and save me some time later, maybe being place in an interview for some international family, that would be wasting time...
In order of Preference list your top ten state to be placed in?
1. Ohio , no sorry that's wrong, I don't want to live in Ohio, i want an excuse to get out of here. Florida, no too hot, but I am sick of the cold. Will I miss the cold? Maybe North Carolina...nah New York? Too busy. California? Living Expenses to high. New Mexico, sure love to, no demand out there. Colorado, beautiful but I am so sick of cold...
Do you have a specific city of interest? Well I love Columbus. Have great friends there, but I don't want to be bogged down by one city.
Best Strengths?
Ugh....?
Weaknesses?
Well... how do I make THIS sound good.
Three words to describe yourself...
1. Goofy ( shoot they don't want a goofy nanny, they want a responsible calm disciplined nanny!)
2. Polite, no no no, Nice. ( nice? what kind of word is that. You pick one and it's NICE???)
3. Outgoing? Smart? Creative? Loving? Compassionate?

I need a thesaurus.

This placement questionnaire is due the 30th along with a resume, with their own format ( which I have never seen), and an autobiographical one page essay about me and my experiences with children. Well that's going to be easy.... shoot.
I feel like I am moving when this school is right down the street. Got my black suit, my tote bag, all my papers, need my transcripts, dang forget new pants....

I think I am stressing out and completely clueless because I am on my own for this one. My parents will help of course, but they have no idea what's going on or what to expect. So here I am, handy dandy with all my checklists and a clump of hair in the other hand.

Overall. This is exciting, I'm doing it on my own, and it doesn't matter where I go, adventure shall always follow.

i really need to get a passport

The only good thing about the snow at this point, is that it protects my feet from slipping all over ice. It's an icy march, and although it is freezing, twilight skies are beautiful.
Sitting on the end seat of the table and then the theater with someone else's friends, is probably the most lonely thing i have experience thus far. i look off into space wishing i was somewhere else. He loosely holds my hand but his eyes are somewhere else. Always another place, another dream. As he drops me off, i'm in no caring mood for bullshit, I sadly kiss his cheek and quickly remove myself from the car. I sneak into my house, while the car speeds off angriliy, praying for silence. Soft steps. I don't want to wake anyone.
Unfortunately with my mind running, it's a slow while before i can fully fall asleep.

So this morning, with hope, I shall look to the future. My next destination is going to be an exciting one and I don't care what anyone has to say. Fuck you my fellow coworkers for shaking your heads at me when telling you my plans. You can rot away at this restuarant, slowly but surely.
I'm so done with this place.

life update.

I've probably written in this box 8 times, and when i get close to posting it, I realize that it's just random babble and erase it all. Things to update about:
1. Going to be an aunt
2. Going to quit my job
3. Nanny school starts in a month ( yeah I said it)
4. I get to see my close friend this weekend

So yeah, nanny school. It's a three month program at the English Nanny and Governess School where you take super interesting classes about babies. There are ridiculous opportunities to travel, such as one girl who just flew out to florida for an interview another girl had one flight out to DC and to chicago. I can pay off some college loans I racked up. I just hope I can find a family with great kids that I can connect to . That's the best part, connections with the kids. And I have to say, I am soo soo soo excited about this.

With all this thinking about the future, watching films that inspire me, I really would like to be immersed into a language. Perhaps I shall go back into TESL, perhaps I will get a business degree and minor in a language. I think TESL will be more fulfilling but either way it all sounds so interesting to me.

alrite, i'm posting this one.